Hello, My name is Jen I'm almost 49 and I'm in the process of knowing myself and grounding into my life, giving myself extreme self-care and focusing on my nuclear family and coming home to my spirit after 49 years of abandoning myself for the needs of extended family and vicious ego issues. I come from an extremely dysfunctional family, My dad is dead my mom is older and remarried my brothers and sisters are all older and all half-siblings on both my mom's genetic side and my father's genetic side. I sit by and watch them all disintegrate into illness old age and poverty and it's super distracting. Taking me away from healing myself comming home to my spirit and finding peace and joy in this world while moving into the middle season of my life. And I do it to myself over and over and over. So this is going to be a diary of sorts of my continuing journey to finding myself and loving Jen just as I am and blossoming into someone I as of yet have not been able to know